e1cea37963a1f9589ca0a8c5cef7a1c4.jpgWhenever we think we always create moments in our minds scenarios where things turn out how we see best happy ever after sevvy?

But life is know to be a lady of strange tides, always wonder why does she have such an un lady like way….

I write this blog am challenged I’ve always wanted to fight for mental health for its a big challenge in our society,

Day In day out people fall into depression, leading to so many possibilities, mental health is definitely going to be worse than cancer or the plague for those from jurassic time

Now! now!


Humans are social beings and we are meant to correlate, this well equals to friendships and what not well , the human being is quite a connected being for one every action has implications on your well being,

Back to mental health,, no 1. Cure and prevention for mental illness……… Drum 🥁 roll 🍥 good friends….complete bullocks, strangely enough it is what it is,

Why, Friends also play a significant role in promoting your overall health. Adults with strong social support have a reduced risk of many significant health problems, including depression, high blood pressure and an unhealthy body mass index (BMI). Studies have even found that older adults with a rich social life are likely to live longer than their peers with fewer connections,

Hold up I know what you are thinking that the people who double tap on your photos or constantly inbox you are friends but well not quite for it takes more than just knowing someone to actually call them a friend  the worst mistake we make and I’ve made was thinking having many friends  assures you immunity and strength well little did I know that out of the 100 you call friends the most insignificant might actually be the only person who actually care about your hind so keep it or cut it, if a person :

  • Increase your sense of belonging and purpose
  • Boost your happiness and reduce your stress
  • Improve your self-confidence and self-worth
  • Help you cope with traumas, such as serious illness, job loss or the death of a loved one

Encourage you to change or avoid unhealthy lifestyle habits, such as excessive drinking or lack of exercise

Keep it that’s the right person to have around you,

Show me your friends they say and I’ll show you your character,

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  • A person who will only be present when you are happy and once the tarven hits ground they flee
  • A good friend would never make you less of a person
  • Parasites the worst kind only around when convenient complete idiots
  • Liars a good friend will always try being truthful someone who cannot be honest with you Is not worth a single second….

Having a big circle is a recipe for disaster, the remedy is not in quantity its quality that matter,

Have a spine a shoulder, a hand that can hold you when you sink

A friendship is an everlasting bridge and we all know maintaining one is important, requires effort for bridges at times can fall and create rifts among people.

Toxic circle of friends will cause you heart aches and send you to the grave sooner or Than later ,

The Pixy dust 

In the cold of the sun

And the heat of the blizzard

When the green withered

And my spirit weakened

The falling light darkened

My alley sort to be distrusted

At my destruction, gazed

In awe they chanted

Of much spiral devoured by my own illusion

Unsure of my state of perception

Felt unpure starved of perfection

My breath in state of resonance

For spike was I Abundance

I leave the, world full of woe

For the seemingly bright glow was a mirage

I seek the light,





I am who I am part 5

3cee753ecc23bc5aab99d53f16a53aa0The courage trail

I saw the last, the flashing light blinded my existence

I be excused for my persistent attempts of self discovery

I set out on a journey  , in chase of a world unseen to none but I

My Insanity detailed in my chronicles,

Adaptive as follicles, my being feigned by the merry of what seems,

Never let the latter dictate present,

Tried change in linen to fit in ,

I gave loud silent screams that only I could hear,

Like a demon tormented by my oIwn conviction,

I sought out to the haunting business

Only to destroy my innerself

My disability to recognize I am who I am

The courage,

We all know am a sucker for psychology and well till recent a fighter for mental health care and just watch out because something big is coming so now this being the Last of the I  am who I am series I’ll talk about Alot ….

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a chronic, multi-symptomatic, and debilitating psychiatric condition that affects, according to studies, beween two and six out of every 100 individuals. This condition is more prevalent than schizophrenia, bipolar illness, and autism combined. These individuals suffer from intense mood swings including depression and anxiety. They have difficulty relating to people, both in employment and in their family and intimate relations. They do not trust other people, and in relating to others often lose control of their emotions and exhibit emotional outbursts of anger and disagreement. Individuals with this disorder , such disorders are caused by constant manipulation of our true identity and falling into a vacuum of self thought that kills your spirit and eventually rock meets bottom

And well all of this is around us I mean why do we have opinions about other people well because humans are created to be creatures of criticism so yes you are forgiven

On this post I focus on the big question do you really know who you are? do you have the courage to accept who you really are?

Philosophy talks of the model of theater which in nutshell simply explains that we are all giving an act and the real self is shy to express due to well the issues of acceptance, but wait if you don’t accept yourself who will?

How many people do you think commit suicide on an average?

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This makes suicide the 10th leading cause of death worldwide. Approximately 0.5-1.4% of people die by suicide, roughly 12 per 100,000 individuals per year. Three quarters of suicides globally occur in the low and middle income countries.
Why? You may ask ,
And I will ask why not, how do you expect one be cautious about self worth when you keep on trampling on what and who they are ,I’ll leave you to think deeper about this
I know some may feel why tell us about such yet I am not affected, well cause you might end up catalysing such a tragedy,
The basity of my argument is does it or does it not matter to care about others , food for thought
Back to the main picture, it’s high time we eliminate the model of leaving life as an act and start believing that the natural self is likable and can be far much greater than what anyone thinks  , acceptance is the key
If a dictionary has its own definition why can’t you also have a clear definition of yourself,
Only you makes you great
Only you matters more
And only you can be the best you
Without withholding your true nature, bloom for in the medow that is your world you are the only flower,
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I am who I am 4

When the onset, is the end of an Era,

When the strongest, fall

A turmoil, arises from the dark

Suffocate my being ,

Aren’t I entitled to merry

Aren’t I supposed to get, what I deserve

I ought not be socked in the tears of the past

I socked and sobbed in a pool of my own depression

I rose and like a Phoenix the ashes weren’t the set back but the grand entrance….

…. I didn’t know how to begin so I’ll go straight to the point and as it is a norm with my work I want you to picture a world of comfort where everything you want you get, where your fantasys come true this is a little exaggeration but hey try think of it,

Is it love you look for well you have it

Is it wealth, kaboom!

Is it happiness you have it

Hope you don’t get lost…. Follow through

Then all that disappears in a flash 📸

Like it never was so on this segment am share something that only I actually discovered my own personal experience,

When all is lost

Well I lost someone and somethings that were dear to me a couple of weeks ago, not just one but two, a father and and an aunt I literally stopped thinking asked myself a million and one questions and never answered any of them I became frustrated by the predicament I was in on one side am the son and am expected to be leading in the process of healing but am also crushed… Shuttered… Sometimes you tend to wonder how the world would end the rush the adrenaline maybe…. I think I tasted an ounce of that.

The type of relations we have with the people who we value the most sometimes am glad I had those seat downs where road would meet rubber and we’d have a neat chat,

Well with some seasoning of rage and well exchange of word,

But I feel like every single, argument made me wiser every single harse moment was a lesson I understood more with the years

I’d say I know some understand what am writing while to some is complete intoxicating grammar and pure nonsense, but at times take sometime and meditate upon what life has given You and if you are religious as I thank your God,

For its not by chance things happen and they don’t happen for a reason but for a destination path… Situations set you on a path a path that if embraced leads you to a better self or destroys and decapitates you

……. I’d sign of saying I am i who I am 4 wasn’t something I gave much thought into but something that I had to release….. We all deserve happiness and is sparks from. Within and never let anything or anyone make you feel that you deserve anything short of that…… @thescorpio

Watch out for part two of part 4🕴️

I am who I am part III

Dreaming of being a superhero ‘

While you can’t save your own life

Every single syllable makes me weaker

Selling a piece of my mind to the verse

My rhythms spell depression and my slumber an escape of the compelling obvious

Tell me a lie and I’ll show you a soul of falsehood

Share a cup with me and I’ll show you dishonesty

Take a leap with me and I’ll show you prosperity

It’s like a night core the middle of the night when all open to the dark inky darkness that swallows my reality

Trial leads to failure

My persona tired of what they meditate upon I a creature full of new breeding .

Defined by the selfish impairment of the wise….

The charisma uplifted a notch high

The fear of knowing the oblivious now foreign

Negating the expectations of the folly

To new destinations ..

Now having a new year is something most people would appreciate like well everyone has this expectations about the new year

Well I won’t say much for the last 365 took Alot of the breath I had so let’s just say the first three hours of the year taught a great lesson,

Letting go sometimes in life we keep holding back and the problem is you never really grow if you hold back I say if a decision scares you go for it for from it you’ll learn Alot more than you would being a chicken

It’s something I had meditating about Alot as, I prefer making mistakes for what. Is life without a foul or two so this is me saying make mistakes if you are a lover of the bottle do what you want and as famous rapper Meek mill said “freedom is when no one can tell you what they want you to be”

Claim your freedom for your mistakes are not who you are and thr position they leave you in is not where you are supposed to be.

To more blog post to a successful year ahead to growing wiser and to brighter 364 days to 2020



A beast caged and wounded by norms,

A bud that shall never bloom for the rays spell doom

A spring that dissappears the heat of the earth of much intensity,

From the yonder beyond the approach so oblivious,

Astranged to one’s self, known to the rest.

A foul stench the lies,

Ablaze the wishes and dreams go,

My destination unknown

Where do I go where the sun shines from the north

Where do I stand for joy to always be inclined to myself.

Why now why not then when the justification was much clearer,…

Well hope you had a merry week so now…..

Are you happy with your life? 🤔

Do you think there things you could do to make your life more interesting?

Well according to a survey done which was published by the telegraph UK 3/10 people think they are happy

Just three in 10 people feel ‘happy with their lives’

Researchers find 69 per cent of people feel trapped in the same old routine and over 40 per cent are unhappy with their lives

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The study found that 69 per cent of people feel trapped in the same old routine and over 40 per cent are unhappy with their lives

Just three in 10 people are “happy with their lives”,

Money worries, dead-end relationships and unfulfilling jobs were among the reasons many said they are unhappy.

The study of 2,000 people found that 69 per cent feel trapped in the same old routine and over 40 per cent are unhappy with their lives.

Lifestyle niggles, worrying about their image well like weight skin complications like the tiniest things have made the world unhappy. But why is it a matter of what people think is good or is it pure lack of self worth.

Just seven per cent described themselves as very happy with their image, while a confidence-lacking 40 per cent of people are actively unhappy with the way they look, results

“The results show that making smaller, positive lifestyle changes rather than setting drastic unattainable targets is the best route to improve overall happiness.”

Relationship stresses also take their toll – results found one in five feels their relationship has declined in recent times, while the same number felt there isn’t a future with their current partner., Boom so apparently relationships are a major in happiness levels we all know this is true for healthy relationships make us happier and less stressed

And work life brings little respite – nearly a quarter don’t feel they’re going anywhere in their job.

Just a quarter of people felt their career had gone to plan and were actually able to do the job they originally hoped to do.

Optimism Audit, found that while more than three-quarters of people think that New Year’s resolutions are ineffective, are they?

Seventy per cent believe that changing just one small thing would make an improvement to their happiness levels.

The majority don’t make changes to their lives as they struggle to know where to start- named as the biggest reason for not changing old habits.

It’s funny how we always laugh yet when the question is posed we would end up admitting that truly we are not.

Is that living a lie well yes.

So well do you think you are happy really.

Do you know what makes you happy?

what is happy?

All this can be answered by one simple question do you know who you are if you are well you’ll definitely know what makes you happy.

I’d strongly advise you to capitalize on it it’s not every day that you are able to get an ounce happiness.

One fellow I shared with told me that his peace was discovered by the fact that he opened his third eye. Sounds like complete Bullocks I know 🤔 but think about what if this is his definition of self discovery.

At the moment the you might be wondering how do I discover who I really am well be on the look out for the few next blog post may come in handy for you…. Any way hope I’ve fed your enormous cravings till next week….. Am I who I Am

Am I who I Am

Was it a smile that blinded them

Was it the joke that confused them

Is it how you said good morning even when night was still looming around you

Or how your smile lit the room yet a dark cloud was hovering over your head.

Was it the compliment that made you feel wanted even when behind you the critics were a blaze with words so vile like venom from a viper….

Was it a lie when you said the world was a peaceful place while your life was a sinking wreck.

I ask why do you paint the rainbow strips on the dark tint that is your life……..

Been a while since the last blog most of you must wander why where was I and why now

I’ll answer this with a pun am a newspaper and everywhere you search my name pops up I can be read and imagined?

So what if you die and cross over and realize heaven does not exist?

What if all you believe in is false and reality hits when you are far away from the world and in the depths of the trench of deception and malice.?

What if the what you see as reality is actually imagination?

What’s if the ground we walk on is just a hallucinations and a syndrome of psychosis?

I mean this are some of the questions I we seldom think of but are they valid well if not then nothing on the face of the earth is…

I have tried living by my own rules tried being a better soul but seems like it’s a waste seems like the me before was a better and stronger being than the present me…….

Well enough about moi.

Who are you I’d ask?

What do your friends think about you?

Do you know what you deserve or are you just a particle carried away by the wind of the scripted Hollywood films?

Well I have a theory what if you end up dying without out knowing yourself

I mean each single time we let people define who we are that we lose track of who we really are

I for one let people take me through the various process of transformation that I forgot my own self and lived according to the rules of my equals.

Ever felt like your life is choking you and well you get driven to a ditch that takes ages to recover from

Well I have a simple way of working through identity crisis….

Drum roll ✨✨ The Dead social life….

You might be wondering what the hoot am talking about but well to find self one requires tranquility a state of serenity.

To tap to your inner persona and craft your aura.

If you feel like you loosing self try taking Time of from your daily routine example reducing media presence

2.reducing interactions with people you feel pull you back

3.the right attitude.

This is purely the introduction to the blog series Am I who I am……. Leave a comment share give a suggestion…..

Destination unknown

If this bed could talk

The secrets it’d revel, the nights ive had sleepless

I twist and turn insomniac ive been ,

Like a maniac in such of the next gold rush,

Ive been hopeless in servitude of my fantasies,

Avoiding the truth in the patterns ,

Evading my true self

Sold myself off to what i thought was my win,

Painted a portrait of self and drowned my brush in wine to forget the piece,

Instead i found my self in pieces ,

Shuttered ,whenever i start the voyage am always cripple my soul of old age

Am alone in this space ,

So am going to write my own story in my own pace ,

I felt like i was on a race for a prize but the price for this endeavour was too high .

If my melody was to be played it’d contradict my words so it’d be a lie ,

Why do we have to live when we are just escaping the inevitable that will fall on us ,

Sometimes i ask with much wander whats the purpose for it seems theres non thats worthy….

This directory has no address so lets get lost in the oblivious direction.

Never create a pitch perfect picture for the brain does not control reality.