Destination unknown

If this bed could talk

The secrets it’d revel, the nights ive had sleepless

I twist and turn insomniac ive been ,

Like a maniac in such of the next gold rush,

Ive been hopeless in servitude of my fantasies,

Avoiding the truth in the patterns ,

Evading my true self

Sold myself off to what i thought was my win,

Painted a portrait of self and drowned my brush in wine to forget the piece,

Instead i found my self in pieces ,

Shuttered ,whenever i start the voyage am always cripple my soul of old age

Am alone in this space ,

So am going to write my own story in my own pace ,

I felt like i was on a race for a prize but the price for this endeavour was too high .

If my melody was to be played it’d contradict my words so it’d be a lie ,

Why do we have to live when we are just escaping the inevitable that will fall on us ,

Sometimes i ask with much wander whats the purpose for it seems theres non thats worthy….

This directory has no address so lets get lost in the oblivious direction.

Never create a pitch perfect picture for the brain does not control reality.

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THE FRAGMENTS.

When all is lost ,

when despair is a remedy,

With vaug vision need of clarity,

With deep conviction

The repulsion a spiral of reflection

Intentions and speculation calmneting ,

Its better to become a ignoramus ,

Than see the obvious,

A sailor in the ocean of the lost ,

A trader of the world beyond

Maybe just maybe the later gives better ,

When your ears see your eyes speak

No escape ,

……its quite another fine week full of buzz and harsh . Interesting enough ……well theres no ending to the statement ….is there really an ending to life or is the latter just a continuation well thats something you’d have to ask your ancestors…..Dont get me wrong its not a mockary I intend to spur ….

The search

Ive heard thoughts of late about life and I seemingly had it all figured out .well until I hit the ice berg and like the titanic I never got to see my destination. This is not the main column but just food for thought.

If you look deep within yourself you tend to realise its like theres something in your life that never really adds up its like theres something missing and it cannot be retrieved do we ever find it ? Well thats something I haven’t quite hacked so question to all who read do you ever feel like something is missing? if yes! What do you think it is ? Your response would be highly appreciated .

Now on to the main course

Fragments of the Heart

Drum roll………

Heartaches heartbreakes ….yes I spilled the beans just in the second paragraph . Morning die of heartbreak than anything else. Yet, there are no mass movements against heartbreak or demonstrations in the streets.

–Saul Bellow

poetically elegant, but also to a certain extent scientifically accurate.

Accurate you might wonder this is purely bullocks for a low rate writer but I mean the basic fact remains that heart break is a disease and one that causes death if theres doubt look it up .

The first study to investigate the question of whether people can actually die of heartbreak was published in the British Medical Journal in 1969. Participants consisted of 4,500

The linkage between heartbreak appears to hinge on a flood of stress hormones, including adrenali

But there’s also a behavioral side to this. Recent studies have found that after the loss or breakups of a loved one, the risk of dying from an accident, violence or drug and alcohol-related event drastically increases as well. In these cases, emotion triggers risky behavior leading to one’s demise. Heartbreak in this sense is an indirect cause of death, and it’s much higher for men than women.

Even if heartbreak doesn’t kill you (and in all likelihood it won’t), it can predispose you to a buffet of other issues. Too-high stress hormone levels are directly linked to gastrointestinal problems, lowered immune response, anxiety disorders and depression. People who have experienced the loss of a loved one or are coming off a break-up are more likely to get a cold, flu and pneumonia. And as everyone who has ever experienced a failed relationship knows, getting back to feeling like “you” takes some time.

Ending on a positive note, whether by death or break-up, the odds of recovery are in your favor. Fortunately, we’re resilient beasts, which is a good thing because we’re also gluttons for emotional punishment.

The remedy to life situation as I always say is acceptance .

Accepting your loses gives you space to heal keeping those who hurt you around is like exposing a patient to a diseases they are being treated for which logically is just despicable.

The best CURETIVE METHOD is hope as far fetched as it may sound a pre diagnosis shows that hope for a better tomorrow will enable you to look forward hence sending the pain of loss straight to hell .

My blog is meant to improve lives its a purpose that sounds not so important but I dream of a world with less mediocrity and more accountability. ..

Next blog how to smoke the liar

Prejudicial surface

The words set a blaze,

Actions of quick dismay,

Flooded by a dogmas a notion so profound,

I am a lost soul who non seeks so should i find,

In the concrete jungle survival requires grind .

I always have the looming sadness in mind,

A generation grown on philosophy so blind,

A chip of the frail block like laces tide,

Who are we to release and be defined,

Who are we to breath and heard,

The only answer i find in the trail is what i stand ,

Liberation the only key to sway my demons and avoid flight,

I traded my soul to a shame so to bring acceptance

Only to realise i was boiling rejection

We all have perception but reality always has obligation

To illuminate the darkness a strategic movement,

Of much finesse ,

Scream in silent tones for the world to hear and bear my whims

Of much regret buy youthful ways and jurassic retrouver.

Release from the shackles spread like ash ,

……been a while haven’t blogged be rest assured nickthescorpio is coming to you refined and defined with a vlog also coming new begins so lets break a leg…..

Prejudicial surface

The words set a blaze,

Actions of quick dismay,

Flooded by a dogmas a notion so profound,

I am a lost soul who non seeks so should i find,

In the concrete jungle survival requires grind .

I always have the looming sadness in mind,

A generation grown on philosophy so blind,

A chip of the frail block like laces tide,

Who are we to release and be defined,

Who are we to breath and heard,

The only answer i find in the trail is what i stand ,

Liberation the only key to sway my demons and avoid flight,

I traded my soul to a shame so to bring acceptance

Only to realise i was boiling rejection

We all have perception but reality always has obligation

To illuminate the darkness a strategic movement,

Of much finesse ,

Scream in silent tones for the world to hear and bear my whims

Of much regret buy youthful ways and jurassic retrouver.

Release from the shackles spread like ash ,

……been a while haven’t blogged be rest assured nickthescorpio is coming to you refined and defined with a vlog also coming new begins so lets break a leg…..

Digital Génocide

in the break of dawn ,

The shimmering rays ,

A glitter of a new world we see,

A community that long with rot the stench,

A scorching breach of the social framework,

Staggering morality of the folk ,

A blinding addiction rescue of no hope,

An end to the grotesque

An oblivious path we trod on,

Quick question number one item always on your hand? Well the answer is in your hand just look at it

Basically i write this blog with a heavy heart of what the world has become…..

They say the apocalypse is near and the world will destroy itself into oblivious beyonds ..

Well i say the apocalypse is in progress.

similar and in some cases worse long-term adverse effects on young adults’ mental health than being maltreated

Nearly 1 in 3 students (27.8%) report being bullied during the school year(National Center for Education Statistics [NCES]

CYBERBULLYING

Approximately 34% of the students report experiencing cyberbullying during their lifetime and 15% of students admitted to cyberbullying others during their lifetime

This is basically statistics from a developed nation so am just thinking . AS technology progresses and new era approachs cyber bullying might just end up being in the same ranks as Ebola …..”nick that is hyperbolic you might say”

But walk through this article and you’ll understand.

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Social media

Social media or should i say social killer . Long gone are the days when people would hold conversation .

I have attended various function so far and i particularly have made a keen observation .

Once upon a time i was seating in a table 4 young lads 2 oldies , i left the table not knowing anyt of their names how was this made possible well by virtue of people skills were purely below average we are slowly losing the sense of human touch and communication due to our continued addiction to ……here it comes …..drumroll. ……THE INTERNET.

VIRTUAL REALITY

artificial environment that is created with software and presented to the user in such a way that the user suspends belief and accepts it as a real environment.

Define an app ….well its software if . A large percentage of the next gen are hooked so much to a world they have created that they forget the real world

Every single time people are always worried about their instagram handles , twitter handles , Facebook and many more the like nation having many likes and many followers is a nice thing but what happens when people’s opinion defines you .

Having various chats with friends led me to find that someone with many likes and followers is an achievement in life and with popularity comes alot of pressure to impress its quite depressing at times you must agree what we now call a social life is a shum…

Social media is wonderful but well with moderation i call it social starvation reduce your intake of the virtual world live in the real world talk to people give people calls focus on people don’t impress just express …..your feelings if you must ….never let the world set standards for you for your social account is not a mirror of who you really are

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The soul

I never wanted my blogs to have much content on spirituality in the respect to those who do not believe in my beliefs. But lemme touch on a topic that is mostly whispered ……no drumrolls for this, its a drug its extremely addictive with adverse effects …..PORNOGRAPHY …..it is one

Of the deadliest hazardous substances out there all in a touch of a button …..

What happens when you give in to lustful ventures well you injure your soul spirit and mind in a way your social standards so lets say you have a house what would you want to fill it with well nice classy furniture good finishing free from insects nice aroma heavenly touch I’d say. But what porn does to you is destroys your house makes it messy roaches every where i know its not a nobel lariat level of illustration but think about does your conscious feel ok at the end of the day do you honestly want to reduce your existance make it worthless .

My thought is the world does not end with the extinction of the human race but with the current state humans are basically culture and beliefs .when the culture is faded then man seizes to exist and the apocalyptic era proceeds.

The end is what you make .

Note: The Internet is a perfect place be cautious dont lose your footing on the wrong pudding when it gets you unruly ensure your soul is in safeguard duly

Genocide :is the deliberate and systematic destruction, in whole or in part, of an ethnic, racial, religious or national group. The term was coined in 1944 by Raphael Le……..this explains it genocide was never really mass massacre …….hope this post shed some light all cannot be accomplished with a single swing of the whisk ……watch out for the next blog how to Tune the craves….tips on battling the addictions……

THE TAGS

…another week , new opportunities maybe or many disappointments hope not…..

In a yard a trail of despicable

Of the Best of state of mind the illusion

The folly a pre diagnosed jolly.

The art of deception a hobby,

To cripple and grapple ,

The jar inverted to create a playing field ,

A dangerous game a perception ,

Of whom to trample on non issue,

Greatest fête the gains of the useless whims .

Till recent days no one actually realised the implications of a certain tactical move that has seemingly grown over the years

THE DUFF

D-esignated

U-gly

F-at

F-riend

Most of you might not be conversant with this term at are actually victims so lets keep this short and ……sw*** naah short and clear many at times and we relate with this we are used how ….well everyone has a group of like minded people they hang with and most at times in or all groups theres the easly approachable one the one whose not superficial so to speak the one who connects easily with others …..well this is the DUFF…so in our story we have the bad guy the victim

The duff is taken through an emotional deceptive method of gaining trust in order to reach one of the allies so basically the duff is used as a pathway….mostly it’s an innocent effort ….I know now you might not relate but lets think how many times has some randy person approached you and wanted to get information about your friends and the person gets really close to you with a two faced character but you aint really their main objective …so now how does the duff saga fit in the picture of life for how long will you let people tap into your life because of things they want from like basically I don’t think friendships should be built on the basis of pathways or assists as many Ninjas would call it Oui?.

..the only beef is why would you put a tag on someone ….

The basis of the duff illustration is an ounce of the tint in the society where people are way too selfish to care about the other person a world where people you’d prefer messing with peoples emotions like Domino’s problem is the world is continuously shrinking ,why? well its cause everyone is going through emotional hell minority embrace it majority avoid accepting this blog is just a start of a series where I’ll focus on the the tags of life and what do you know you might actually get to categories yourself and actually find a tunnel out of the tags ….its high time the using stop the tags ……

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Brokenness within

Like a storm of much destruction

When each breath suffocates your soul

When rage is caged

And the purge on the inside

The sacrilege is neigh

When what was most important fades

The roots of great depth

The voices tormenting with each whisper

The constraints of slavery to the weight of the heart

Quarantine the is mind for a leech plungers ,

Destruction of the rise the fall premeditated,

….it’s another week full of its array life has never been much better

Very unorthodox method of starting the post today so now ….

Q.NAME THE FEELING DESCRIBED BELOW?

it makes your whole body hurt makes somber a relevance brings so much doubt and it makes you feel like there’s a lump on your chest ….every time you experience it you feel weighed down your heart so heavy to carry …..it’s an emotion that drives many to death ….

Well lemme give you a hint yes, It’s pain ..every single day we undergo so many emotions interaction with people from various backgrounds. Every day when you walk on the street a glance at the faces of people you’ll mostly see a smile .

Little is known of what this smiles hold …it seems a smile is the new look for sadness …..

What am I getting at well we all undergo pain ….most of the time the people who hurt us are the ones we love the ones we don’t share any connection with the ones we’d die for, and take a bullet for …..

The world is in so much pain that each time the thought of happiness sounds like a fantasy made up ….

I know we all relate with the fact that we experience this emotion.

From psychology we get to understand that emotional pain and physical are the same the body gets the same reaction ….in this perspective I’d like to give a breakdown on how well to deal with all the hurt life throws at you

Session 1

Crying has always been one thing we as humans do when responding to the pain and anguish on the inside …..pain rips our souls out and seemingly throws us into and endless trans of thoughts that lead to stress and anxiety disorders in the long run depression. The worst kind of pain is when you do not forgive yourself, and instead of support from people you hope would you get judgment . Every single time one feels like they are alone it just breaks you on the inside like a bacteria that feeds on matter slowly till it reaches the core and finally end it …….

Session 2

Had a lengthy chat with my counselor on this and shared a few tips on how to work through this

What. Happens when you see a wall barricading your path ? Do you turn back and go home ? No you either climb over it go beneath it or well break it pain is like a wall that stops you from Living to the efficient level…

Psychological fact

Pain never goes away just like the wall you only need to find away around it .

How to deal with pain.

1. Internal forgiveness….most of the time we blame ourselves but doesn’t really matter who did it who didn’t I mean it’s already done the basis of hurt and pain is for one to grow when you see pain as a channel for growth and not a boat of self destruction then you shall find peace and we all know how sweet peace is

2. Surround yourself with the right people ….. having to many friends seems like an achievement but what is the use of having a million people only for them to turn a cold shoulder when you are breaking….. ensure you have two or one person whom you can let all your worries and pain on sometimes sharing the pain makes it better …. having a person who listens to you rant is very key ….try it but also be careful with whom you disclose your demons too some people might end up taking advantage of your vulnerability and turn it into an opportunity to suck the life out of you

3. Positivity… It’s cliché ik but this is the number 1. Cure for everything.. whenever the hurt comes always have it in mind that years have seasons and after a storm the noose is not the answer but take the noose use it make a hedge for your garden grow …hope for a better tomorrow you’d rather loose everything but never loose hope for without hope all is lost …….

This is how I’ve been dealing with all the whispers and demons ….what I’ve been through could drive me to depression but I didn’t let it because I had hope . I believed after the storm the sun would shine …..

society has made us believe it is wrong to be in pain, that we have to be happy all the time.

Kayla

……I’d love to hear your feedback if you’ll read this …..

Till next week …..I say embrace yourself……the fact that we only get one shot to life on earth spend it well ……

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